My solar plexus chakra can be pulled out like a little drawer, below the rib cage, to check on things. Buddha was said to be navel gazing, but actually he was checking on his third chakra. From this, the third chakra, they say self-esteem, self-confidence, personal power, one’s will comes. I imagine that people with good self-esteem and self-confidence and personal power have a roaring fire for a steam engine, propelling them forward. My chakra just burns with little yellow flames when anxiety hits my stomach, or as red embers when I’m ashamed and insecure.
I discovered that my chakra could be pulled out like a drawer when I was young. I nurtured my chakra with dry grass and a fire poker, adding to the anxieties of bullying, communists, or where I would sleep that night. My sense of worthlessness was like a fire that would not catch, or the smoldering steam from coals after rain.
You’re blamed for not having self-esteem, self-confidence and personal power as if it were your decision to not have these. Go into the interview with confidence! Tell your boyfriend how you really feel! Stand up for yourself when you’re treated badly! I think people who blame have never had a Plan B of getting raped, sleeping on the streets in winter, or eating only rice for a week. They don’t know how bad things can be if you’re not compliant.
In the early lessons of fire-minding, I learned how to keep the fire contained, not how to use it to power an engine. My Plan A needed very modest goals, because I couldn’t risk Plan B. All I had was the fire of anxiety in my gut, not the fire of power.
The real trick is to have no third chakra at all, no sense of self in that soul-yearning way, no anxiety that you won’t survive. The Buddha was looking at an empty drawer.