Abusing your family and being violent are completely understandable if you are bipolar or schizophrenic. You have to go to jail to protect society, but we understand.
Case study: A violent bipolar man, Adam, my step-son. Beats up gf now and then. (Question: Can his daughter count getting beaten by Adam while still inside her mom as her own first beating?) Adam gets off assault charges when gf lies. He hits his 3-year-old son (who still isn’t able to talk). Won’t take bipolar meds because they mess with his ability to perform. If he does eventually take out his family, it will be such a shock, but understandable due to his bipolar.
Adam’s biological family has bipolar running rampant. He was adopted at 8, which was much too late to be reborn to a new childhood. His definition of love already required abuse and violence. No one took responsibility for his suffering, and he is not responsible for anyone else’s.
So conches, nebula and pinecones all have the same spiral pattern, a Fibonacci sequence. I believe this also describes time: Rather than going in a straight two-dimensional line, time goes in a Fibonacci spiral. Round and round, events from lower spirals resonate loudly for years and years, creating a cacophony of previous spirals, from warmth to abuse to pain. T.S. Eliot: “Time present, and time past are both perhaps present in time future. And time future contained in time past.”
It was impossible to save Adam at 8, 18 or when he’s 28. Maybe one in a thousand people have very poor hearing and doesn’t get the previous spirals. But I have insanely good hearing, and the knocks and bangs of childhood resonate so loudly decades after everyone else has forgotten … not only memories but emotions, smells, thoughts, everything. Am I rightly categorized alongside violent family-killers? Yes and no.
And yeah, Adam’s daughter’s pre-birth beating counts as spiral one.